judgement

this is a emotional stumbling block for me... no a huge fucking wall, or ocean to cross... i got a serious belief in my head that grades are all about judgement so each time i take a class and learn something i feel excited and want to express my enthusiam... then i realize each expression is under scrutiny and will receive positive or negative ratings that coxt a thousand dollars a pop... well that kind thinking continues until i fail or drop..i guess i never got over my teenage angst.